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In the autumn of 1991
I was on a train to the south
Six days and nights
I clutched the only 300 yuan I had in my pocket
But I was still cheated out of 100 yuan
Because there are a group of people who said they were Communists
They blackmailed us turning a $20 lunch into $200
Otherwise I will be stuck in there
I became a proletarian now
A man without possessions
The sun laughed at the tears on my forehead
I came to a place where there were construction sites everywhere
The people here say there's no job you can do without referral fees
Even though we are relatives
But without money, any talk is spared
I stirred the concrete together as the king of the construction site demanded
Pulling a heavy dump truck
I can't stop
Four days and nights
My legs kept sounding the alarm
I tried with all my might
In order to let my legs out of the dirt and run out of here
I don't want to see mountains when I open the door
I don't want to run with the cows from one hill to another
And see the adults working here
We live in the eastern hemisphere
The sunrise makes
The sunset but the rest
Walking seven hours to school
Go back home once every six months
Eat meat once a month
When winter comes
Wash your face with water so cold that it will break your bones
Red and swollen bumps on your hands
It’s itch when the weather is hot
It’s hurts when the weather is cold
Unfortunately
Be nowhere
A dream shattered
Restart
Do you still like oranges a lot?
I see you still have lots of notes in your wallet
But you can't spend it anymore
You said you were saving it to buy the snacks
which is your beloved granddaughter’s favourite.
But what I saw is your walking stick lying next to a pile of stones
Blazing fire
couldn't make it melt into the dust
I can’t see my homeland
but I’m looking up at the same stars as you
I am among a group of people
Whispering
The initial gaze
Withered in the village
When I turned around
I hear the cotton dripping with rain
I am like an hourglass but not willing to return to dust
The night wind pushes me forward
Starry fragments
In my eyes and heart
Stabbing at me
Dead leaves in winter
Green branches in summer
How do I dispel the morning fog
Threads are twisted together
With secret force
I am always playing being “normal”
With the moonlight
Flowing into the wilderness
Between the hidden stones
My bulging belly
Scented with flowers
Helping me to digest these messy wreckage
——
In the autumn of 1991
I was on a train to the south
Six days and nights
I clutched the only 300 yuan I had in my pocket
But I was still cheated out of 100 yuan
Because there are a group of people who said they were Communists
They blackmailed us turning a $20 lunch into $200
Otherwise I will be stuck in there
I became a proletarian now
A man without possessions
The sun laughed at the tears on my forehead
I came to a place where there were construction sites everywhere
The people here say there's no job you can do without referral fees
Even though we are relatives
But without money, any talk is spared
I stirred the concrete together as the king of the construction site demanded
Pulling a heavy dump truck
I can't stop
Four days and nights
My legs kept sounding the alarm
I tried with all my might
In order to let my legs out of the dirt and run out of here
Do you think he's tired?
I feel he's really tired
Then why doesn't he take a break?
I think he's frightened to take a break.
I feel he's really tired
Then why doesn't he take a break?
I think he's frightened to take a break.
I don't want to see mountains when I open the door
I don't want to run with the cows from one hill to another
And see the adults working here
We live in the eastern hemisphere
The sunrise makes
The sunset but the rest
Walking seven hours to school
Go back home once every six months
Eat meat once a month
When winter comes
Wash your face with water so cold that it will break your bones
Red and swollen bumps on your hands
It’s itch when the weather is hot
It’s hurts when the weather is cold
Unfortunately
Be nowhere
A dream shattered
Restart
Oh look, he's getting tired of cheesecake.
That's not a good sign.
That's not a good sign.
Do you still like oranges a lot?
I see you still have lots of notes in your wallet
But you can't spend it anymore
You said you were saving it to buy the snacks
which is your beloved granddaughter’s favourite.
But what I saw is your walking stick lying next to a pile of stones
Blazing fire
couldn't make it melt into the dust
Look, he's waking up with nightmares again.
I know what's in his dreams.
Hands,
a white face,
short hair and black eyes.
I know what's in his dreams.
Hands,
a white face,
short hair and black eyes.
I can’t see my homeland
but I’m looking up at the same stars as you
I am among a group of people
Whispering
The initial gaze
Withered in the village
When I turned around
I hear the cotton dripping with rain
I am like an hourglass but not willing to return to dust
The night wind pushes me forward
Starry fragments
In my eyes and heart
Stabbing at me
Well, it's 3:03 again
Again and again the fear and disappointment
He told me that the stars in his world were cold
No light, no colour
Just an uneven stone disguised by external forces
Just like me
I hide it as well
Again and again the fear and disappointment
He told me that the stars in his world were cold
No light, no colour
Just an uneven stone disguised by external forces
Just like me
I hide it as well
Dead leaves in winter
Green branches in summer
How do I dispel the morning fog
Threads are twisted together
With secret force
I am always playing being “normal”
With the moonlight
Flowing into the wilderness
Between the hidden stones
My bulging belly
Scented with flowers
Helping me to digest these messy wreckage
——
Right
I'm looking for some kind of belonging and identity
You know what?
Why I'm lost
Different from left to right
Unaware and hindsight
I'm looking for some kind of belonging and identity
You know what?
Why I'm lost
Different from left to right
Unaware and hindsight
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1991年秋天
我坐上去南方的火车
六天六夜
我紧紧握着口袋里仅有的的300元
但还是被骗走了100元
因为有一群人说他们是党员
他们敲诈我们 把20元的炸鱼薯条变成了200
否则我将会被困在那里
我也变成了一个无产阶级了
没有财产的人
太阳嘲笑着我额头的泪水
我来到一个到处都是建筑工地的地方
这里的人说没有介绍费就没有工作
尽管我们是亲戚
但也没钱免谈
我按照要求将混凝土搅在一起
拉着沉重的斗车
我不能停下
四天三晚
我的腿一直在发出警报
我拼尽全身力气
将我的腿从土里挣脱向另一个方向跑去
你觉得他累吗
我感觉他很累
那他为什么不休息一下呢
我觉得他不敢休息
我不想一打开门就见到山
我不想和牛一起从这个山头跑到那个山头
看见的却是大人们在劳作
我们住在东半球
日出而作
日落而归
走7个小时的路去学校
半年回一次家
一个月吃一次肉
冬天来了
就用冻得骨头都会碎掉的水洗脸
手上红肿的小疙瘩
天气一热就很痒
天气一冷就很痛
可惜
名落孙山
梦碎
重启
Oh 你看, 他开始厌倦cheesecake了
这不会是一个好兆头
你还是很喜欢吃橘子吗？
我看到你的钱包里还有很多纸币
但却再也花不出去了
你说要留着为你心爱的孙女买它喜欢的零食
但我却看到你的拐杖躺在一堆石头旁边
熊熊烈火
也无法让它随风殆尽
你看他又被噩梦惊醒了
我知道他梦里有什么
一双手
白的脸
短头发和黑色的眼睛
我看不见故土
但我与你在仰望同一片星空
我在一群人之间
轻声细雨
最初的凝望
凋零在村落
当一个转身
听见棉花淋了雨
我如图沙漏却不甘于尘土
夜风推着我前进
星辰般的碎片
眼里与心里
刺向我
好吧，又是3:03
一次又一次的害怕和失望
他跟我说过他世界里的星星是冷的
不会发光 没有颜色
只是一块凹凸不平的石头借着外力掩饰着
就像我
我也掩饰着
冬天枯叶
夏天绿枝
我要如何驱散晨雾
丝线被缠绕在一起
暗暗用力
我在被扮演“正常”
与月光一起
流向荒郊野岭
在隐蔽的石头之间
我鼓鼓的腹部
散发着花香
在帮我消化这一片狼藉
——
1991年秋天
我坐上去南方的火车
六天六夜
我紧紧握着口袋里仅有的的300元
但还是被骗走了100元
因为有一群人说他们是党员
他们敲诈我们 把20元的炸鱼薯条变成了200
否则我将会被困在那里
我也变成了一个无产阶级了
没有财产的人
太阳嘲笑着我额头的泪水
我来到一个到处都是建筑工地的地方
这里的人说没有介绍费就没有工作
尽管我们是亲戚
但也没钱免谈
我按照要求将混凝土搅在一起
拉着沉重的斗车
我不能停下
四天三晚
我的腿一直在发出警报
我拼尽全身力气
将我的腿从土里挣脱向另一个方向跑去
你觉得他累吗
我感觉他很累
那他为什么不休息一下呢
我觉得他不敢休息
我不想一打开门就见到山
我不想和牛一起从这个山头跑到那个山头
看见的却是大人们在劳作
我们住在东半球
日出而作
日落而归
走7个小时的路去学校
半年回一次家
一个月吃一次肉
冬天来了
就用冻得骨头都会碎掉的水洗脸
手上红肿的小疙瘩
天气一热就很痒
天气一冷就很痛
可惜
名落孙山
梦碎
重启
Oh 你看, 他开始厌倦cheesecake了
这不会是一个好兆头
你还是很喜欢吃橘子吗？
我看到你的钱包里还有很多纸币
但却再也花不出去了
你说要留着为你心爱的孙女买它喜欢的零食
但我却看到你的拐杖躺在一堆石头旁边
熊熊烈火
也无法让它随风殆尽
你看他又被噩梦惊醒了
我知道他梦里有什么
一双手
白的脸
短头发和黑色的眼睛
我看不见故土
但我与你在仰望同一片星空
我在一群人之间
轻声细雨
最初的凝望
凋零在村落
当一个转身
听见棉花淋了雨
我如图沙漏却不甘于尘土
夜风推着我前进
星辰般的碎片
眼里与心里
刺向我
好吧，又是3:03
一次又一次的害怕和失望
他跟我说过他世界里的星星是冷的
不会发光 没有颜色
只是一块凹凸不平的石头借着外力掩饰着
就像我
我也掩饰着
冬天枯叶
夏天绿枝
我要如何驱散晨雾
丝线被缠绕在一起
暗暗用力
我在被扮演“正常”
与月光一起
流向荒郊野岭
在隐蔽的石头之间
我鼓鼓的腹部
散发着花香
在帮我消化这一片狼藉
——
是的
我在寻找某种归属和认同
你知道吗？
我为什么迷失了
左右不同
不知不觉而后知后觉
我在寻找某种归属和认同
你知道吗？
我为什么迷失了
左右不同
不知不觉而后知后觉